Self Discovery And Then Some

I've noticed recently I have been forming some of the same self-destructive habits Drake had, especially in the end of our relationship. I'm okay with that.

I've gained weight. Gross.

JohnRoss and I discussed my dating habits a while back. Apparently sometimes I date guys with low self-esteem because I have a superiority complex. I can see how that is true, though not with Adam. Adam had all the confidence in the world and then some, and rightfully so. Others were good at pretending they did.

I love to cook now. Well, love is too strong a word. I like it more than I used to. And I actually eat real food now instead of just boxed crap that has a zillion gross calories to make me fatter.

I want a new cell phone. I want a pink one, or a purple one. I think camera phones are stupid and a waste of money and they take crappy pictures anyway.

Justin Timberlake is back at the top of my Friends Five list. After the concert he put on, it would be hard to dethrone him. He sang every song off FutureSex/LoveSounds with the exception of 'Pose'. He even sang 'Gone', from way back in the day with N*Sync. It was beautiful. He is beautiful.

I think it's bothered some people recently that I am no longer agreeing with whatever they say or do. Fuck off. I've never been a yes-man, you're just shocked and shaken that before, I didn't give a shit, but now I just think you're being a moron. You're never going to get your life on track if you keep this shit up.

It's true that the one person you think will never let you down inevitably does. I'm not quite heart-broken over it, but I am definitely not happy. I guess I'm moving on now. I don't have much choice, I've already been left behind.

I never knew
I never knew that everything was fallin' through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's gotta be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears
"Over My Head" The Fray

On a lighter note now, I am hopefully going to Omaha tomorrow to spend St Patrick's Day with the boys, sans Adam of course. If it doesn't work out, you can bet Shelly and I will be retarded drunk somewhere, smoking. That's how we roll.